Three weeks into my restart.....

Today was Week 3, Day 1 of a fresh start.  The first week of this restart was similar to others.  The first day I was ready to take on the world, the next day I was ready to sink back into my dark hole and never do a workout again.  Week two I was able to hit all of my workouts.  Now here we are at week 3 and I am still on track, workout wise.
Nutrition wise...not nearly as good.  But this is a process.  I am slowly getting back to my old habits of eating proper food. Today was a good day EXCEPT for a corn muffin that I was eating before my brain could say no.  Tomorrow will be better.  And the next day even better than that.

Here is the thing.  I knew I was slipping and I knew I needed to get back on track, but I kept going back to the good ole, "tomorrow, today will be my last day of gluttony", then "tomorrow" would be my last day of gluttony, then again.  And just as the saying goes, "tomorrow never comes".  I kept focusing on how bad I was being. Then I watched a press conference by Conor McGregor.  McGregor is now the UFC Champion in his weight class.  This press conference was about an hour after he had just won the belt.  He said a few things that really hit home but one really stood out.
"Winners focus on winning, losers focus on winners"
Most will see this and think, "what does this have to do with weight loss".  My response is this, I have been focusing on the wrong thing.  I have been trying to figure out what fit person I want to be like.  Do I want to be like my CrossFit?  He is very lean and muscular.  Do I want to be like DDP? He is an amazing yogi.  Do I want to be like my GR friends? These guys and girls are as tough as nails.
What I need to be focusing on is being me.  I enjoy doing DDPYoga, jogging, and Kettlebells regularly.  I enjoy doing GORUCK events.  What I do enjoy is feeling beat down everyday.  This is the feeling you have when you are doing CrossFit, or training heavily in a GORUCK based program.  I am going to focus on my goals!!! Which brings me back to another amazing quote from the McGregor press conference: (speaking about his ability to predict how the fight would end with incredible detail and accuracy)
"If you can see it here (point to his head) and you have the courage enough to speak it.  It will happen.  So I see this shots, I see this sequences, and I don't shy away from them.  A lot of times people believe in certain things but hey keep to themselves.  They don't put it out there.  If you truly believe in it, you become vocal with it, you are creating that law of attraction that will become reality."So here is it.  I am vocalizing what I see from myself:
1.) I will lose 30 pounds before the end of February.  This should put me close to 250 again.
2.) I will finish back to back GORUCK Tough and Light in March.
3.) I will complete the Monument Ave 10K unbroken in April.
All of this will be accomplished with copious abouts of hard work and proper diet.  There will be slips, but I will not let my arrogance get in the way again.

So glad to be back!!!!!!!
Marv "exHeavyHippie" White (let's get that "ex" back)

for those that are interested here is the press conference I am quoting: